This was the goal of "Pinoy Big Brother" housemate Kisses Delavin, after having a heart-to-heart talk with Big Brother on Monday night.
The 17-year-old aspiring beauty queen was summoned to the confession room, where she burst into tears after a failed attempt to confront her fellow housemates Marco Gallo and Vivoree Esclito.
Inside the confession room, Big Brother asked Delavin to reveal what has been bothering her.
"Ayoko po talaga na nasasaktan ako, pero kasi kahit kalimutan ko nasasaktan pa rin ako. So I just wanna forget it kasi ayoko na nakakasakit ng tao," Delavin said.
(I don't like th efeeling of being hurt, But even if I try to forget it, I can still feel the pain. I want to forget because I don want to hurt others.)
According to her, she used to share a certain intimacy with Gallo, who has always been caring and thoughtful to her. This, however, ended when Gallo admitted his feelings for Esclito.
"Kasi si Marco po naging close talaga ako sa kanya. Nagustuhan ko talaga 'yong personality niya. Gustong gusto ko na maalaga siya, mabuti talaga siyang tao, lahat ng gusto ko sa isang tao nandoon kay Marco. And sobra-sobrang pinakita niya sa akin na pag-care, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. Tapos, bigla na siyang tumigil," she said.
(I became close to Marco. I like his personality. I like how caring he was. He's a good person. I can see all the characters I want in a person in Marco. I don't know what happened. He just stopped [caring].)
Delavin's statement led Big Brother to ask: "So, sinasabi mo bang may nararamdaman ka para kay Marco?"
(You mean to say, you have romantic feelings for Marco?)
Although she was hesitant at first, Delavin finally opened up about what she really feels about Gallo.
"Nagustuhan ko po talaga siya, Kuya (I really liked him)," she quipped.
"Pero 'yon, Kuya, nasasaktan lang ako kasi hindi ko alam kung anong nagagawa kong mali kasi lagi nalang akong iniiwan sa ere ng mga tao. Hindi nila tina-try na mas kilalanin. Tinitignan lang nila 'yong hitsura ko, kung ano lang 'yong mababaw. Pagod na pagod na ako, ayoko na kuya. Ang hirap-hirap na lagi kang hindi pinipili."
(I am hurting. I don't know what I keep doing wrong, but I always get deserted in the end. They don't try to know me better. I'm tired, Big Brother. It feels bad that you don't get chosen.)
Despite that, Delavin expressed her willingness to move on and forget about her feelings for the sake of their friendship.
"May mga bagay na kailangan mong i-accept and move on. Marami pong mga bagay na mas magandang pagtuunan ng pansin," she said.
(There are things that you need to accept in order to move on.)
But, of course, moving on is a difficult process especially if you see the person everyday. As soon as she left the confession room, Delavin ran inside the girls' bedroom and wept.
"Hindi ko alam kung bakit ayaw niya sa akin," she told another housemate, Maymay Entrata.
(I don't know why he does not like me.)
source: www.abs-cbnnews.com
